~Man
says show me & I’ll trust you. God says trust me & I’ll show you~
When I first sat down to type
out this post, I was on cloud nine. I had just returned from my first and last
endocrinologist appointment, where I was given a clean bill of health! He said,
my levels are normal and I can eliminate hyperthyroidism from my vocabulary. Go
make babies, if I so choose lol. While I was celebrating and thanking God for
His goodness, I realized that that was too easy.
What I mean by too easy is, I
already know God at that level of faith. Our daughter was born at 26 weeks and spent 4
months in the hospital. I remember when she came home and a lot of people would
say, “Thank God for modern medicine and the doctors, nurses, etc that were
there.” That always irked me because I was like, Yes I am thankful for the health
care professionals and the medical advancements, but there were plenty of
families who we met in that NICU who didn’t have the testimony of a live, 100%
healthy baby at the end of their journey. God gives life and takes it away and
I’m thankful He chose to not only let her live, but to thrive with no residue
of her experience except a small scar on her right hand.
Sorry about the rant, but you
gotta give credit where credit is due. Anyways, yeah so even though I got
rocked a little with the hyperthyroidism diagnosis, I knew it was a minor
setback and distraction from everything I was supposed to be doing. A piece of
cake for God to get in order with some prayer and dietary changes.
As I began my original post, I
got writer’s block, which meant I was typing from my brain and not my heart. Deep
breath….One of the things I pray every year is for God to increase my faith, because the Bible says that it's impossible to please God without faith (Hebrews 11:6).
After I deleted everything I’d typed prior to this, I felt the Holy Spirit
telling me to share my most fervent prayer request. One I don’t even think I’ve
shared with my husband. I was like, I don’t know about all of that. I’m all for
transparency Lord, but everybody doesn’t need to know my prayer life.
Then, I started crying because I was afraid that if He didn’t answer my prayer I’d look like a
fraud and people would say the God I serve isn’t real. But I’m going to do it
anyway because it’s easy to find medical explanations for many things but only
the Sovereign God can get credit for this one.
My grandmother, Essie Goodwin, lovingly referred to as Bom Bom, has very advanced Alzheimer’s. She’s been in a home for about 5 years. She is
the only grandmother I’ve known and anyone in our family will tell you, she was
the glue that held us together even when she was chasing the grandkids with
switches she made us get off of the neighbors’ bushes lol. For the past 2 years
I have been praying for her recovery. Why? Because it’s possible.
How could I
believe that, when she’s so far gone? 2 reasons. First, everyone on earth serves a purpose, and
because God hasn’t chosen to take her to eternity she still has a purpose even
if it’s just to prove His power for one day or even one hour. Second reason, the Bible says that if I have faith the size of a mustard seed, I can move mountains (Matthew 17:20) and that, "The prayer from the heart of a man right with God has much power (James 5:16). Those are my firm
beliefs.
What happens if God doesn’t heal her? Well, I’m praying for God’s will to be done and if that’s not a part
of His plan then I’ll have to accept that. Asking God to increase my faith is
not about whether or not He answers my prayers with a yes, it’s about trusting Him
no matter what the outcome of a situation is or what circumstances look like. Either way
my grandmother is going to be healed, it just may not happen until she gets to
Heaven. So while my request may seem far-fetched
and silly to some, what's important to me is important to God and He enjoys doing the impossible.
What are you believing God
for? Do your actions and confession (what you say) match your belief? Nelson
Mandela said, “One cannot be prepared for something while secretly believing it
will not happen.” Ask God to do the impossible and give you trust without
borders. I dare you.
For with God nothing [is or ever] shall be impossible.
~Luke 1:37 (AMP)~
Peace & Love,
E.Volving
